Okay, it's all getting a bit real now. I got hold of a reference from one of my teachers, and am currently waiting for my personal one from my friend Jo.

After that, there's not a lot more I can put into the application, I just need to send it off and then hope for the best.

I always said I wasn't going to pin my hopes on one thing, but that seems to have been what's ended up happening with where I'm applying.

I did so much research and haven't really come across another course that suits me in the same way. It's non-dogmatic and quite long but that suits me just fine with the breadth of my interests.

I don't know what they're looking for - I'm certainly not the best yogi around and I definitely have massive imposter syndrome being super non-flex and with my passion for wanting to teach only having come on early this year - but I honestly don't think I can do anything else at this point. I've done so many workshops and read so much and tried to adjust how I live my life accordingly.

The application deadline is the start of February, and then I'll possibly be asked to interview at the start of March. If I get on it, it would start in April, and if I don't, well, hopefully I'll have useful feedback and then I can move on with my life (though I can't say I won't be upset after all this).

In the meantime, I've just got to keep going with all my reading and home practice and so on. What else is there to do at this stage?