My mum and sister said something to me over the weekend about my passion for yoga potentially being somewhat of a passing fad as with other things I used to really care about, and it really made me think. I do sometimes worry that I come off obsessive to other people - if you're with people who give a toss about yoga that's fine, but around your family, who generally aren't that bothered, and your other friends (e.g., last week my work friend Anna said, jokingly, that all I talk about is yoga and unions - this isn't untrue, to some degree!) it can be a little overwhelming, and I do sometimes feel like I need to temper my enthusiasm.
Maybe I'll find myself caring less in a couple of years and I'll think 'what did I waste all my time on'?
I mean, I hope I continue to feel like this - it's like something has clicked in my head, I feel so enthusiastic and energetic when I think and talk about yoga, and there's no denying the way yoga works on you mentally and physically.
But.
I've been through this before - I used to be completely obsessed with theatre, went six times a week, talked about it all the time, reviewed it for work, wrote about it for work. A few years on, I still love it, but I barely go (money to start with, then laziness). I got super into Pilates after my accident, and when I was getting injured through yoga (at the time, a purely physical practice) I found it a complete boon, went twice a week and raved about my teacher (who is still great, to be clear). But in the last year or so I have really slacked off (partly because of other commitments, partly through laziness) and I find myself tipping into enthusiasm over yoga that I am sure I must have had over Pilates.
Maybe I still do and yoga's just my focus right now. I have an intensely all or nothing personality, and I do worry that I'm putting a lot of time and energy and money into this and yet I don't really know if it's something I will be wanting to do for the rest of my life - and that's kind of the point of teacher training.
I guess there's no real way of finding that out right now, bar getting on with it and seeing what happens, and hoping for the best.